Stretching

Woo. Let me just tell you that tomorrow I am doing a photoshoot. And instead of being excited like I might have been in the past; working to make sure my nails are flawless, skin is pimple free and teeth are white I am going to sit here and continue this dump blog.

Nothing this week has been more aggravating to me than myself. Why is it so hard after you have a child to see yourself in the same light? Even when I was huge with my little boy growing inside of me I would have felt more confident going into this photoshoot tomorrow than I do sitting here today. Though I have lost a significant amount of weight, my skin is healthier and my hair is longer.

Rather than embracing the good and owning my new strong body that has sacrificed and persevered through so much I have sat here dreading tomorrow and dwelling on the one negative that came with my pregnancy #stretchmarks. HELLO! Of course I have them. I had a little boy that grew straight out in a matter of weeks at the end and then decided to join us early! That's something that your body just cannot avoid sometimes and seems to be almost impossible to bounce back from.

Regardless, self image is such a challenging topic. I am not sure I am even prepared to dive deeper into it. So we will leave it here and hope that someone is out there wishing me luck tomorrow to own my post baby body and work that camera like I would have before. I will keep you posted, until next time.